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Sunday, December 14, 2008

WOOHOO!!!



went for the 1st concert in my entire life--ANDY LAU WONDER WORLD CONCERT!!!



super duper ultra ultimate and the best concert in the world man!



he started 15mi later at 8.15pm. opening song is 中国人 followed by 痛苦的人 and one other song. he is realli super 帅 and 靓仔. so much better looking thn on tv even though he is alr like super 帅 on TV. he is the best-looking and the hottest man in the world!!



the whole atmosphere was kinda high from the beginning. was screaming and blowing the whistle, shouting and clapping from the start to the end.



he sang loads of his 成名曲. dance and sing at the same time. no 走音 no coarse voice no nothing. was really PERFECT. realli damn 佩服 him. can sing and dance and 炒热那个气氛 and he is alr like 47. me and my cousin scream and shout and jump etc etc until so tired, but he is still up and going. WOOHOO!!



we even sang one of his hot song, 忘情水 for him. can realli hear the whole stadium of people singing. he continued half-way through. i sang along all the songs i know. of cos there are some exceptions like his cantonese songs. i dont know sing but just swayed along. my 荧光棒 nv off ever since the start.



he is super humourous. keep saying he was 靓仔 anf depends on his looks 20 yrs ago. and until now, he is still so 靓仔. HAHA. thats true though! the crowd keep shouting his name 华仔 and 靓仔. and he ask us to calm down and says that he know he is very 靓仔. he not only 能看,能唱,能演 etc. true true!! HAHA.



after the 1st part, abt 6-7 songs, was a little talking session. by thn some people are standing while some are sitting down. so he was like 那些站起来的比较爱我. HAHA. of cos it includes me and my cousin. and goes abt saying that he saw diff age grp of people. thn suddenly point to one person and ask the age. thn he was like 问都年龄,大家都huh (started posing some pose that shows like shy shy, dont want answer). he even ask if those sitting is 不爱他 or is it 太老了,不对,是太成熟了所以站不起来,不想动了!HAHA!! cos he say he saw many 爸爸妈妈级,不对是哥哥姐姐级的人!! HAHA.



there are also some touching part. like saying how people here still so support him. he see children, parents, old people etc etc of different age group. he is touched that people still so support him and hopes people will continue. he ask if we still remember his olden days look and ask what is his 1st movie. but there is no unison answer. so he said like 还说什么爱我,问你们第一个电影你们都回答不出. HAHA!! i remember ok. it should be the one where he is a lawyer and came back to hong kong. he is suppose to defend for a prostitute who is alleged for murder. but that prostitute turn out to be his mom. nice and touching movie. i remember ok.



thn the screen shows his olden days movie screen shot. funnie how he looks but still very shuai ok. HAHA.



he continued with a song 17. it is realli a song for him. writes abt how hard he has work from nothing to a superstar. there is a lyrics that says something like dont be ashame to tell people that he is your idol. i have nv felt ashame of that even though my friends keeps saying that he is an old man. in fact i am super proud of him! LOVE HIM FOREVER!!



he also sang 再说一次我爱你 where he sang to the different directions, to all the different groups of audience '再说一次我爱你!' we sang along too cos we love him too!!



at some part he said that 爱我很苦对不对. the answer is obviously YES. 真得很苦!he hasn't had a concert in singapore for 8 yrs or even more alr. 终于等到他,盼到他来了!though it is realli very 苦 but no regrets at all! he said that after this, he also dont know when he will be back. that is like so sad. hope he will come back again in the near future for i will still go the next time he come. hope he will come back soon. S$ is easier to earn thn other country!! 要记得赶快回来哦!



after abt 2hrs, we thought his concert end le. cos after he sang 爱你一万年, the screen has I LOVE YOU! as well as some 烟火 thing and some smoky effects. he keeps saying thank you and realli make it like end alr.



but after a while, the screen shows andox and 6,5,4,3,2,1 and he appear again. this time singing 超人. his latest album song, a fast one. everyone stand and all squeeze to the pathment and the whole atmosphere is super high. he requested us all to stand. yea. realli nobody is sitting down. me and my cousin never sit after this. HAHA.



everyone shouts the song's 'OH OH! OH OH!' for him. and after that was like 'GO ANDY GO ANDY GO GO!'. shouted that as well. super high. keep blowing my whistle, shouting and screaming. jumping along as well.


andox and 黑仔 came out as well. HAHA. they were super funny. ask us if we want to see them perform and they wont perform if there is no clapping and shouting for them. HAHA. 黑仔 perform a street dance kinda thing and andox perform 匹腿. super funny cos he say '妈妈!我好像受伤了!' HAHA!! super cute lor the 2 of them. thn they say they dont wanna perform with andy lau cos they are too hungry and wanna go find food to eat. they even ask if andy lau wanna 打包. HAHA!! love them man! super cute with their robotic-sound-alike voice!!


after all the tiring stuff, back to the slow song. though he sang slow song, but the 反应 is very good as well. he requested us to take out the 荧光棒 that was given. he wants us all to turn to blue. thn he thinks its not nice so ask us to turn to red. HAHA.



there are some idiots that turn to green and still wave it frantically. when he saw it he was like 为什么是青色的?青色就是不爱我!HAHA! the whole staduim was filled with glowing red light. realli damn nice.



this whole part last for 1 hr. the hi-est part of all. SUPER FUN! he sang quite a lot of touching songs. includes 谢谢你的爱. he thank us for loving him all the while. ending song is 真永远. the effect was realli nice. screen shows a pair wings, flying. LOVE HIM!



the whole concert is just FABULOUS!!BEST!!i dont regret spending $201 to see him though he is kinda far away from me and he appears so small in my eyes. but realli no regrets. if i can choose again, i will wanna go. had loads of fun though my throat hurts and i am tired and 脚酸 from all the standing and jumping.



some regrets is that he din sing 练习、无间道 and 黑蝙蝠中队. he changed into a pilot suit and i thought he is gonna sing 黑蝙蝠中队 but he sang 一 instead. dance sexily with the dancer. the female dancer 真是赚到了!!嫉妒嫉妒!



he sang 牧笛 but only a small part of it. i rather like the song though so kinda sad that he onli sang half of it.



there is also magic show in the concert. the female dancer's clothes just change in a glimpse after the 大旗 was flash down. amazing!



other than that, behind me is a old ah mah and an auntie. when we stand, they were like saying stop blocking and sit down in hokkien. we were so piss off la. come on. if u wanna sit and listen, pls go buy the cheapest ticket and sit upstairs and shut up! and they were so angry and so came out and squeeze next to me. being super fed up, me and my cousin purposely blow our whistle super loudly at their ears and drove them away. HAHA.



pls la. concert are meant to be high! we are not the only ones! its a source of enjoyment to shout and 发泄一下我们心中的快乐和激动!if we dont do it now, who knows when is there a second chance. cos andy lau ask us to all stand up and maybe bcos of this, he will kena warning. realli hate singapore abt this lor. why shld they ban him! we are all out for fun. not as if there will be a stampede or what. we will look out for safety. how me and my cousin wish to stand on the chair!



i guess he is even more tired. but bcos its the last concert, so he say he dont care!he will sing until the last minute! he really 硬撑 and sweat like dont know what. he says that if he cant continue, let us continue for him. of cos we will but he still sing until super well! 实力派就是实力派!3hrs of singing and dancing is no kick! how many of us can do that when we turn 47! 崇拜你!<3



he receive a total of 7 香槟 and open 2. drank a mouthful cos he say 妈妈说我肝不好,不能喝太多酒,只能喝一点. but atmosphere is hi enough when he pop open the 香槟!HAHA!



loads of fun that are undescribable. but too bad this concert is not gonna have a dvd. if not i will sure buy. but after this, i am even more 肯定 that besides his concert, i will never ever go other people concert. he will be the only one!! cos he is so worth my support!


超爱他!永远支持他!LOVE YA FOREVER!!!
Friday, December 5, 2008

I AM DECOMPOSING!!

din find work for this holiday cos its just so short. onli one month and i wonder wat can i do. will those sales related shops employ people who have very 不固定 free time. or people who can onli work alot this month and maybe onli 1 day per wk from next month?

have been rotting at home lately, doing my all time favourite--watching DRAMAS. i think i shld realli go TS or Poh Kim to work part time if ever they need people. HAHA!

but i kinda fell in love with this kinda lifestyle. though its boring and 会和社会和周遭环境脱节 but at least i dont have to worry. worry abt school work, 人际关系, and every other thing that needs to be worried. and i find the future getting more 渺茫. with economic recession, life seems to have to be more 节俭. must be thankful that my mom and dad still have a job.

ahead of me is just hectic school life with loads of holidays which i doubt can be used for enjoyment. after uni will supposedly be NIE time. and after that will be the no-life work life. seems like life just revolve around work/study. little time for family or myself. seems like 总有忙不完的事. one thing just end and the other things just appear.

ever since we all went to different academic pathway, gatherings with friends are getting lesser and lesser. everyone has got thier own life and busy with their own stuff. more and more are leaving. wondering if singapore is realli that bad such that everyone just 等不及要离开.

coming to think of such future, i am beginning to feel so 惆怅. emo-ing. people like me, no $$ no everything. think i can only get stuck in this island for the rest of my life. but come to think abt it, if i dont want to leave in singapore, where else can i go. i cant think of any place that is better than singapore in terms of political stability, govt ability, social and economic factor, free-from-disaster, negligible discrimination etc.

but having to work till 65 or even more is so saddening. how i wish i can retire before 35 with loads and loads of money to 环游世界. has seen some taiwan variety show that revolves around all the different countries around the world. realli great. the world is realli so big. how i wish i can set myself on journey to these different places. but too bad i dont have the 经济基础 to achieve all these.

while re-watching some dramas, the characters seem to have such a 丰富 and 精彩的人生. 我的人生什么时候也可以变得和他们一样那么多姿多彩、让我在老的时候还可以依靠这些回忆继续走下去?活在回忆里似乎是我现在的生活方式。现在的我无时无刻不想到小学、中学那段无忧无虑,无需为学业、人生目标和方向等烦恼的生活。能够成为我未来回忆的东西也越来越少。现在,似乎没什么快乐、劲爆、温馨、难忘的事情会再发生在我的身上了。
Wednesday, December 3, 2008

i am about to die soon i suppose.sore throat.flu.cough. they are all back to haunt me TOGETHER!

finally exams are over N days ago and i have started slacking for like more than 2 weeks. and i realised that i have hooked on to my current slacking lifestyle. i love spending, to many as wasting, time watching DRAMAS and VARIETY SHOWS. 珠光宝气。小娘惹。王牌大贱谍。国光帮帮忙。and loads of other old yet classic TVB dramas like 壹号皇庭、刑事侦缉档案、陀枪师姐、西游记 as well as Jin Yong's 武侠 dramas.

enjoyed my life sticking my eyes on the PC or TV screen. i simply love them. besides watching the drama plot, i also like to take note on little things like props problem, see whether the mike appeared on the screen or not, see the improvement in the different actors and actresses.

TVB DRAMAS...

for hong kong tvb dramas, i think i am getting more and more disappointed. 黎姿 decides to 退出演艺圈 and ada choi has got some spine problem so she kinda decides to rest. and 宣萱 has disappeared. so i suppose the future tvb will be 佘诗曼's 天下!!i hate it! cos i dont like her (i am sorry if u r her fans but i just dont like her) but i do agree that she is very gorgeous, beautiful, hot etc. sadly, she cant act. the way she say her 台词 is seriously CMI.

other than their actor actress problem, there is a big big prob with the drama's ending. their drama's which has more than 1 part is always spoilt starting from the second part or further. like the recent 法证先锋 in channel u. the 1st part is like so nice yet the sec0nd part is like SHIT. not tt 佘诗曼 is in it but they just spoil everything. the loving couple that just got engaged in part one and the girl just died of a car accident in the 1st episode of the second part. the same thing happens for the 学警雄心. the first part is a classic but the second part is so CMI. and now they are filming the 3rd part. forget it man.

they seem to like to spoil the ending of very nice drama. like the 古灵精探 and 少年四大名捕. in the end, like none get to be with their loved one. Roger Kwok even died and the ending is just so weird. or sometime the ending is like no ending. like 陀枪师姐4. i doubt there will be part 5 cos Joyce Tang and Margo Ngai broke up and that guy is married. hate it when a drama cant be completed bcos of actors and actresses personal prob though we cant realli blame them.

i seem to be like wasting my time and getting myself so angry even though i knoe that watching drama is an enjoyment and i shouldn't be so 认真. but i cant help it. 我就是这样的人。

i am getting to like 陈法拉. think she is realli good, esp after watching 家好月圆. and i hope that all my tvb favourites like Bernice Liu, 钟嘉欣, 杨怡 etc can stay on and produce more and better drama. as for the guys, i am kinda puzzled if bosco wong really 没戏唱了. cos he seems to be out of big production. though he is in 珠光宝气, but his role is kinda 次要. and i am so shocked that 马国明 is up and rising. but nontheless, i still hope that the 4少爷(raymond lam, bosco wond, ron ng and 陈健峰)can produce more co-drama. Love them!

and there is a weird trend. the 老艺人 seems to be the limelight of the year. but nvm. 姜还是老的辣。their acting is simply one word--BEST. but i am not talking abt 李思琦. though she seems to be a nice person, but i think her acting seems to be the same regardless of whether in 真情、唐心风暴I or 家好月圆. but i think 李香琴 is really good man. and the guan ju ying and 米雪 as well. they deserve the limelight. cheers for them.

continue to support tvb. hope all the pro 演员 like 罗家良、宣萱、Roger Kwok etc gets to come back. or at least there will be co-production with other non-contract actor or actress like 张卫健 etc. they realli are very actor and actresses. pray that they better dont spoil 珠光宝气. and support that drama cos its realli realli nice. it gigi lai's last drama. gonna miss her.

SINGAPORE DRAMAS

one word. disappointing.

小娘惹 i think is realli 宣传过渡. the initial momentum is so freaking slow. and why get 潘玲玲 to act as 18-20 yrs old young girl. why so many 一人分饰两角?难道就没有其他的演员了吗?but it is getting nicer now. hope it gets better.

and enough of all the part 1 and part 2 drama. can they just film finish all parts before showing. if part one's so called ending is no ending, than why bother to call it 大结局. i think they are just hooked on to fliming all these drama after Hong kong's 真情 and Mediacorp's Holland Village. all the others like 喜临门、同心圆、手足、心花朵朵开 etc just follows. things just gets boring, esp when the theme is like the same and they just drags on to be a 长寿剧. pls dont film for the sake of filming. it sucks.

and i realise that they just like to anyhow match the drama couple. like 郑斌辉. he can be with 陈凤玲、郭淑贤 and 姚懿珊(watever her name is). ridiculous ok. 姚懿珊 is like 11 yrs or more younger than him. 郭淑贤 is like in her 30s but 陈凤玲 is in her 20s. how can one same guy go for these 2 different type of woman. and they like to get Christopher lee to act in like love idol drama or those 20s young guy like that of the beach volleyball drama and the drama with 欧萱 and elvin ng. come on. train more young people and dont always use the same pple. what's the point of all the superstar, super idol,才华 etc 寻星比赛 if you always let the 资深 people take over the job.

but nonetheless, there are good actor. like Chen Han Wei in the recent drama abt aids. 红星大奖 is near. i really hope that he can get the award. though this yr, the awards seem to be meant more the nyonia drama. but poor tay pin hui cos he acted realli well in the 黄金路 and that is kinda good drama other than some dunno-wats-the-point plot in the drama. poor terence cao cos he is such a good actor. in the past, bcos of xie shao guang, he cant get the award. now that he is gone, terence cao kena 冷藏 by the company.

and one thing. can they stop copying hong kong's style of the favourite drama character award. kinda cant stand them cos everything just seems to be copying from other country. even the local variety game show. realli 惨不忍睹. realli hope that we can have our own style. hope that 红星大奖 will turn out exciting and not like the recent 45 yr anniversary show.

以上皆是个人立场. yes i know i am not a pro and shouldnt critic till like i am an expert but these are just some points i have noticed. in hope for more improvements though i will support them no matter what. what's more impt is that there will be more nice and good drama for everyone.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008

STRESSED...

omg. i had my first paper today-principle of econs. super sad and disappointed after this paper. have studied quite a lot for this paper but i dont realli know how to do. stress cause me to forget all i have learnt. my mind just went blank. i think i am super dead for this paper. praying hard that i can at least get a B, which is like only 3.0 gpa for this paper. and yen even says that can get 50/100 marks already must 偷笑. yea. i agree with that man.

din study for ah qiu's exam. just started half yesterday and tmr is the exam. this econs seriously spoil all my feelings to do the future exam papers. hate it! just hope ah qiu can give us easy paper. at least none of the people will fail. same thing. i dont expect a A or wat cos i am definitely not good and sucks at this subject. just a B is enough. hope my mind wont go blank like what happen in econs paper. pray that the 4 short questions wont make me totally stun as to what to write and that i will not forget how to write the different words cos we wont be able to bring a dictionary in.

the min gpa to go on to sem two is actually 2.0 which is a average C. you may think that C is ok grade. but above C, there are B-,B,B+,A-,A,A+. its really that bad. and wanting to pull a gpa of 2 to a 4, i think you need many A's in order to do that. but i still hope i can get above or at least min 2 to go on. actually i just wanna 3 point something, not 4 or above 4. i dont wanna receive a warning letter right from the 1st sem of the 1st year! living in fear and stress now that i cant remember anymore things now. i wonder how i am gonna cope on the 19th nov where i have 2 papers on the same day.

神啊!救救我吧!保佑我能够顺利过关!我并不贪心!我只想能够继续升学!i am definitely not aiming to get 1st class honours or go to the dean's list cos 那是绝对不可能的!拜托拜托!让我实现我的愿望吧!
Monday, November 3, 2008

Room Cleaning

yea. as the title suggest, i cleaned a room but....ITS NOT MY BEDROOM!!HAHAHA!! it's ah huang and yen lin's room. you must be thinking that i am mad cos i dont even bother to clean my own room, even my house, why would i clean their room for them. HAHA. but i am not a 自虐狂. anyway its on my own accord, they din ask me to help. its a coincidence.


cos walked back to collect my stuff at yen's place. we went to hand in our hc101 report thn to lee wee nam to study. n we decide to eat sakae buffet. so she went back to her hostel to put all the heavy stuffs like laptop. so shun bian help me put my laptop at her hostel. yea.

after eating super full, went to her place. and we were chatting when she spotted some dust on her blanket. and its from the fan. so i told her tt my roomie, an engineering student, says that if the fan is too dusty, it will cause the fan to move slower. so she or we decided to clean the fan a bit. at least wipe the major big pieces of dust away.

so we shifted the bed apart so that the dust wont drop on it. but yen later decides to clean the bedsheet as well. just as we shift the bed, i found that the floor, esp those under the bed has got thick layers of dust. cannot tahan. so i just offer to clean the floor for them. used the magic clean 除尘纸拖把 to clean the floor. here is the 除尘纸拖把 looks like after cleaning. HAHA.








and i was nagging why its so dirty all the while. HAHA. and yen was like saying that its her not her. yi fang is suppose the clean the room while she wash the clothes. HAHA. thn yen also took another 除尘纸拖把 to help clean the place. and i realise that their place got a lot of hidden corners which are totally ignored. so help them clean. HAHA.

to ensure that the place is clean, i mop the floor using the 除尘纸拖把, but use the wet cotton thingi. and this is what it looks like after cleaning the 2nd time.


much cleaner but still got some dust. haix. you just cant get rid of all the dust. its like every where around you.


by the way, while cleaning the floor, we off the fan. so both of us is already sweating like mad. since alr clean the floor, might as well wipe the whole fan and clean the whole place(not exactly the whole la. din clean the windows, doors, cupboards.HAHA).


so we continued the plan to clean the fan. so we cleverly use the 除尘纸拖把 to try to 把 all the dust on the fan blade to sweep down. but we realise that that defeats the purpose of cleaning the floor just now. HAHA. and the fan just keeps turning when we try to clean it and we cant clean it clean enough. so i tell yen that we really need to wipe it using cloth and was asking her for one.



btw. here is the pile of big pieces of dust that we manage to sweep it off the fan blades.


but she told me she dont have. thn i suggest using the cloth they use to put their 拖鞋 for indoor use. she allowed and so she went to fetch a pail of water. then i wipe the fan for her. cos we dont have high chairs so we really super geniously stack the 2 mattress together so i can climb on them and clean the fan. wohoo. so clever right for both of us. HAHA.

and yen found a white cloth abandoned by someone. and she says her hall keep on having such things happening all the time. so 不管了, just use. HAHA. so she will help me 拧干 the cloth and clean it abit when it gets too dirty using that pail of water. so started standing on the 2 layer mattress to wipe the fan. feeling kinda scared cos i am a bit unbalance.



the pail of water after using it to clean the fan. HAHA.



And after some time and hard work...TADA...Mission accomplished!好有成就感!HAHA!


the clean clean fan. thise things u see at the edge of the blades is bcos of the paint that drops off (油漆掉了) and not dust. HAHA.

after the fan is done, we started pulling off those matress covers etc. and we found layer of dust at the corners of the bed etc. so i just clean for them the part where you put the matress the 'head' of the bed and stuff. yen also help to clean.


and after this, she starts to clean her table, but of cos with a new pail of water. she added detol, and a bit too much, so the room smell of dettol. HAHA. but the smell is quite nice la. at least you know that your room is sterilised and free from germs. as for me, i use the 除尘纸拖把 again to mop the floor and get rid of those mini mini piece of dust that dropped off when we were wiping the fan and the bed.


after that, i help ah huang clean her table as well using yen's new-found cloth and her dettol water. HAHA. but then her table too many things le and i dont realli like to shift others stuff just to clean the table. cos i also dont like it this way. so just clean those parts she never put anything.

Finally, our work is 90% done. the last thing is to just spread the bedsheets etc. and yen decides to do it after she bath. and after all these cleaning, we are both sweating like mad. fans have been off for quite a long time. so she left to bath while i went back to my hostel.


had fun laughing while cleaning the room. we even say that we shld do this near new year. and why are we doing it now. but by the time it reach new year, 还得了吗? and we bought laugh about this. HAHA. also laugh when yen says that those big pieces of dust looks like 毛毛虫. HAHA. and as we clean we get more high to the extent that we wanna take down the pics of all the dust and dirt to show ah huang. HAHA. and she regretted not paying $6/hr to a person who offered to clean their room for them. HAHA.


the cleaned room after both of our hard work. =)


After cleaning, the fan really turn faster but it also produce a louder 'turning sound'. so if you are wondering why your room gets hotter and your fan seems to produce less wind, you know what to do. but of cos, dont find me. HAHA. joking joking. you can still ask me to help if you need assistance. =)
Sunday, November 2, 2008

my mother tried to murder me part 2...

HAHA. i just know from my mom that she is trying to heat up a pot of 西洋菜汤 instead of 卤肉锅. cos the whole thing is so black and chao da that i thought she is cooking a pot of 卤肉. HAHA. she planned to observe if the pot of soup has boiled, then off the stove, after she bathe. but then my aunt called and said that she wanna send her to work and keep rushing my mom to go downstairs. so she gan jiong gan jiong just leave the house and forgot all about the stove and the pot.

and i am dying from soot or carbon poisoning if ever there is such a thing. my room and my blanket still smells of chao da smell, though its onli light smell of it. but i still cant stand it. =X
Saturday, November 1, 2008

My mother tried to murder me..HAHA..

This morning i am still happily wandering around in my dreamland when i suddenly smell a stench, a chao da smell. i thought its some ritual or incense paper burning or neighbour's air con engine overheated or wat, so i ignored it. i continue sleeping(actually in half conscious mode la) until i realli cant tahan the smell. super angry and wanted to see who is this inconsiderate person.

just when i opened my room's door, the stench gets get more 浓. i was finding it so weird when i realise that the smell came from the kitchen. and on the stove, the pot is giving out a lot of 浓烟. mu mom forgot to turn off the stove before she leaves for work. think she is trying to heat up or cook a 鲁肉锅 or something. but she forgot to turn off the stove and caused the thing to chao da.

its super dangerous, and coming to think that i am still unaware of danger approaching and can happily continue to sleep, 我真是没有危险意识. luckily she is not cooking a kettle of water, or else it will be like so ultra dangerous. she closed the windows before going out so that in case it rains, the rain wont 喷进来. if she is cooking water, any small little action can cause explosion. and luckily this incident din cause a fire in my house. or else i will become a 烧猪. 死了都没人知道. and our house din buy 火险 so we wont get any compensation. it will really be 人财两空.

coming to think of it, its kinda scary that my mom would be so careless. she has never been like this before. but i should consider myself to be very lucky. luckily i din continue sleeping. or else i think i will never wake up again. HAHA.

called her to told her that. she seems quite calm. maybe bcos she knows that things are alright. wonder wats wrong with her. maybe she is getting older, so her body couldn't hold on thus resulting in her 精神恍惚 or maybe she is just too tired. thats worrying. hope she will be alright.

my aunt came later and find that the whole house stinks. told her abt this story and she got a worse scare than me. she is like blaming my mom for her carelessness but started to help clear up the mess. she even ask me if she can throw the pot away so she can avoid cleaning it. OF COS NOT LA. the pot is like 贵的 and 好的 ok. my mom will kill me if i let her throw away. my aunt is like that. always have some weird ideas that 让你哭笑不得. HAHA.

誊清说明
To yen and shimin. i am sorry to have caused an argument between you two over me. i am thankful and i know that both of u care for me but its just from different point of view. yen thinks that i need to change bcos i cant continue to offend pple as in uni, there isnt that much time like in sec, jc where friends always 粘在一起 and there are ample of times to know each other, to get used to each other etc. and i need to say that shimin is my best friend. we've known each other since P3 and all the way same class till sec2. so she feels angry bcos i am so sad over this issue. i din realli tell her much, other than you know i am straightforward and i will offend pple without me even knowing that, and just ask her to read the blog(s). after reading, she feels angry and stuff. and thats y. yea. to you all she is just an outsider who dont know the situation so you all may think that she is not fit to say anything. pls dont be angry with her, argue with her or 互相argue cos she is just putting herself in my shoe. shimin, i am sorry if i put you in a difficult place. and for yen lin, i know your point, really.


in sec, we can accept each other in this way of communication.its not only me who 损 others but also others who 损 me. at one time, we used to joke with lin lin abt her height( not only me but others as well etc) cos she insist that her height is 150 but when the teacher measured its 149 and yet she still insist that she is 150 but now she is 153. HAHA. but when we like kinda 嘲笑 her abt tt, she will also 反驳 and begin to say the disadvantages of being so tall (eg. bang into the dangling handle of buses and mrt, legs will feel uncomfortable in u sit in the first seat(the one behind the bus driver) etc) and she will start to say all those things when we happen to sit in a bus or wat. in the end, we all and seriously all of us including me and her and whoever will laugh when we were 斗嘴-ing. If someone just ask qns like wat day is today after class ends, we will just say like today is not XXXXday but Sunday. and he/she will just laugh and say things like watever. or when he/she ask a stupid qn, or i ask a stupid qn, we will say stuff like do u have a brain etc and they will knock my/whoever's head and says that there's reverberation, meaning its empty. after which the person will 配合 you and says that it is not that he/she have got no brain but just left it at home at the Nth ccupboard Nth row Nth drawer. and we will usually say that he/she/me is so crap and we will just laugh abt it. That is how we communicate. you may think that its stupid and not funny at all, wat are we laughing about. but it is this that constitutes to our memories. 打打闹闹 is basically what we always do when we walk out of chung cheng to the bus stop(chung cheng is surrounded my pte housing so we gotta walk abt 2 马路 to the 大路, so we always meet to walk out together) it is the laughter, the chatting, talking, crapping that makes the route appear so short. and trust me. i am not the worse 损人欺负人专家. 天外有天,人外有人. those guys are far far far worse than me, they r inhumane la. HAHA. shimin, if u r reading this, u will know wat i mean and bet u agree right?

For sec3 to 4, it is also not me who always 损 pple. pple also 损 me. and that person is usually yen lin. HAHA. but i dont realli take it that hard. just one ear in and the other out. i think by the next day i would have forgotten abt this thing. just like she will laugh at me when i dont know that prawn's shells is seprated with its flash, as in 不是粘着的 even when its uncooked. thats so 经典. there are so many times i believe but i really really cant remember anymore. i can accept her 冷嘲热讽,尖酸刻薄的 sacarstic comments. and i believe she can too. thats y i say we can 互损 cos we areboth not very sensitive people. but i am not saying that u all are sensitive people, really really.


Not say we 24-7 活在互损里, but that is mostly the way we communicate with each other. there are times when we sit down, seriously talk abt our life, our education pathway etc. just like xxuan has got depression several times bcos of sec 2 streaming, O level, in J1. she is a councillor and vice-president of choir in sec. and president of choir in JC. the busy schedule just makes her 崩溃 and there are times she feel like giving up. and as friends, we do give her advice and motivate her to fight on. during streaming in sec2, she is like super stress when she just wanna get combined history as one of her subjects. but our sch dun offer it with triple sci. so wat is there to be worried abt. in the end she got streamed into triple sci and thn she have to 大费周章 to appeal to double sci+combined hist. we do talk abt all these stuff and console her when she is feeling so bad about her life and herself. same thing happened in sec4 o level and JC1. but she make it for her O's at quite a good results considering her before-o-level situation. but not for JC1 sadly. but i am happy for her now that she is in poly studying tourism n hospitality. at least and perhaps that is what she really wanted compared to individual subjects like Maths, Chem, Physics etc.


If you think that 互损-ing is so 肤浅, you are wrong. did you know that my sec 1 and sec 2 class are still very very close up to now. we go to recesses everyday together, meet up at foyer to walk to bus stop together, eat together at Singpost/Parkway etc many times after school, have chalets, x'mas gathering every year, meet up to re-visit chung cheng, meet up at weekends, neoprints, phototaking, mass-cip etc. until now, it is still so. and the whole gang of us is like 10+ of us. how many of you can 大声说 that you and your sec 1 sec 2 class are still that close or even still in contact. alot of pple in sec sch says that they are envious of us being that close. if we are 肤浅 de friends, how can our friendship lasts so long. is like 7 years already.


The problem goes back to different point of view. to you or you all, you may or you treat things i say as 骂你或对你冷嘲热讽 i cant help it but to say that i am realli SORRY to have hurt your feelings. but to me, i am just trying to be lame, to 制造一个效果. i am sorry that it fails to appear. but i realli dont mean it that way. for the 三个月 watch thingi, i am standing on a economic point of view. but i forget that this can also signify a common identity where everyone can afford it. i dont mean to 泼冷水, really. when i say about the 去喝喜酒 thing, i meant it as very formal, very pretty. cos i seriously feel that she wear until very nice that day. and bcos she is the only one who 化妆 and it just looks so formal and nice, so i jokingly says that she is going to meet the parents. i din expect you all to think likewise. i am sorry to both of you. i really dont mean it that way.seriously. for my very very close friends like shimin(11 years), jianhao(8 years), yen lin(7 years) they know. maybe to you all, you all may think that they 习惯了 and thus is immuned. but 这么多年的感情当然跟两个多月的感情是没得比的.


i dont wanna 把事情和大家的感情搞得那么僵. 在你们说我冷嘲热讽,辱骂你们时,你们就没有这么做吗?do you know how heart broken i am when i see the post(s) on thursday night. i just cant control and started crying so terribly and my heart feels so heavy. its like N 把刀叉紧我的心里. i am not a person who realli like to cry so much. i am rather 铁石心肠 cos i dont cry when i see very very sad dramas, movies etc. exception will definitely be when i talk about my mother. thats all. i have nv felt so sad before la.

i realli realli treat you people as my good friends, really. for me, if i dont like this person or this person is just a normal acquantance, i wont bother to talk to and 哈啦 so much with them. i have never imagined or thought that you all really 把我想得那么差. 我真的很心痛你知道吗?在那一夜里,我突然想起了我的老友. 我以前也是这样,可是结果差很远. it makes me miss them even more and i really need someone to talk to before 崩溃. i have been feeling very sad since last sunday but i never cried over this thing. your posts realli hurts me. come to think about it, if 我从来不把你们当成知心朋友,我的心就不会那么痛. 在你们眼里,我就真得那么一文不值吗?how i wish i can just 从此不把你们当朋友 and begin to hate you all so i wouldnt feel so hurt. but 我就是做不到. 这个认知让我的心更痛. i have never cried so long before, not even when i get CCD for my A's or when i am leaving home to stay in a hostel. all the way from 10pm-4am. 我真的很想就这样死了算了. but after talking to my friends that night, they make me feel that 我还是有价值的. thanks to you guys, shi min, jove, mok.


note: i am not trying to imply that you people take things and every single things to heart. its just that i 怀念 the times when we seriously 口无遮拦 and just say anything we want to our friends but we dont take offence. we just one ear in and the other out. if you think that the words take things to heart is offensive, can you help me think of a better word to replace cos my vocab is realli 烂. haha. thanks.


other than 冷嘲热讽,辱骂, are there really nothing nice which i said. am i realli such a 一文不值的朋友or 人?have i always says all these bad things to you all all the time. perhaps 你的眼睛被你的愤怒遮蔽了而导致你只看到不好的一面. are there times that i praise that u have a good dress sense? perhaps not to you directly but i remembered i once said that, but i forgot to who. have i said that though she onli slept in 3 or 4am but her complexion is still so good, 让我好羡慕?或许你是在愤怒之下写出了一些带有火药味的气话. 你也会说将心比心. 你有没有想过我的感受?或许我是遭到了报应. 我的冷嘲热讽跟辱骂的杀伤力跟你写的这几篇文章更本不算什么. 我所说过好的事情完全不能弥补我所说过坏的事情. 但是你互损的消遣, 那太肤浅 and 明明知道做错了,还要理直气壮 and 见光死确实然我伤透了心. 我觉得这话好重哦. 我没想到在我的好朋友眼里,我是这么得不堪. 你知道你写的这一切把我想跟你们和好的希望统统打碎了,也把我的尊严踩在脚底下。你让自尊心很高的我(and all my friends know that)一息之间从天堂跌入地狱里。或许你并没有这个意思. so the prob just goes back to point of view again. this makes me think of hc101 文本 and 观点.

i feel that we need some time to cool down, so i din talk to you all. partly because i know that you all are angry at me so i dont dare to come near you all. i tot maybe as the days goes, it will gradually get better. but i din expect to see such post on Thursday. it shocked me, seriously. i am not trying to 推卸责任, really.


this should be my last post abt this issue. i dont wish to let this issue cling on to my heart and making me unable to concentrate on anything. pls dont make yourself so angry and frustrated over this issue while making me feel so sad and 自责, esp when it involves our common friends. 我不想他们难做人. its not worth it i think. 怨怨相报何时了. i know that it is impossible to go back to before but i hope we can still 搭上一两句话 or still be able to ask each other about school work's problems, borrow notes from each other etc. at least a smile, a hi and a bye. 朋友也好,同学也罢,我真的真的不希望我们变成仇人. 我真的不想搞得那么僵,真的. 如果你对我还是存有什么不满或不爽或还是有愤怒,你可以直接跟我说. 我愿意听也会学着接受的. 而我也比较喜欢这中直截了当的方式. 你可以直接打电话给我或sms我,我有free incoming call 和很多剩下的free sms. i am singtel user so if u r also singtel user, it is free to sms me. 你也可以tag 在我的blog. 你也可以msn 我或是发email 到 pearlysiah@yahoo.com.sg 希望能够得到你们的回应!=)


让一切告一段落吧!说完这些话,我的心舒服多了!=)


To those whom i have 不直觉地 hurt you: I AM REALLY REALLY SORRY!! I WILL LEARN TO BE MORE TACTFUL NEXT TIME and 留一点余地. if sorry is not enough, can you tell me what i can do to 消/减少你的气?anyway for royston's present, we agreed to share that time. so can you all tell me the exact amount so i can pay you all. thanks.

To those whom have shown their concern and 安慰 me: I AM REALLY THANKFUL FOR ALL THE ADVICES, CONCERNS. ALL OF YOU ARE MY PRECIOUS FRIENDS!! I LOVE U ALL!! 你们都是我的死党好友姐妹涛,不要为了我而搞得这么不愉快!! 我打从心里知道,真的知道你们是真的为我好,对我好,为我想!我很庆幸自己进了育能和中正,因为它们让我认识了你们!我自尊心很强所以不善表达我对你们的重视。BUT 你们永远占据了我心里很深很深很深的一大片!=)


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HAHA. from their pose you can see how lame the bunch of us are.





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